My ski trip

Sunday night I returned from my ski trip. It took me a few days to blog about it because I had to recouperate first. It was nice but it wasn't really what I expected. We had fun, but there was some false advertisements about the trip. First of all we were suppsed to be going to the Poconos and we did not find out until we got on the bus that the trip had been rerouted to CONNECTICUT!! We were shocked. I already had to prepare myself for a 3 hour drive so imagine how I felt when I found out we were in for a 5 hour drive!! Oh well, what could we do then? Nothing. We were already packed up, on the bus and ready to roll out.

We got there about 10:30 pm. on Friday. We checked in chilled out for a while then went down stairs to get something to eat and get some drinks. They had a buffet open for us and the bar was open until 2:00am. After we ate and we mingled it was time to get ready for the PJ party. As you can imagine it was off the hook. Some chicks was dam near naked. They had a contest for the sexiest male and female slippers. Then a contest for sexiest male and female pajamas. Needless to say that was crazy. Some chicks just have no dam shame in there game. It wasn't like they were going to win anything but of course they were still bumping and grinding all over the floor with some lingerie on. One girl had on a jane of the jungle outfit with a wrap around. We should have known that underneath the wraparound was a matching thong. Of course she pulled it off and had to shake her ass all over the stage. What makes it so bad is she wasn't even the raunchiest of them all. One girl really took the cake. You could tell she made her living as a stripper. I'm not even going to lie, we was all in amazement. I guess if you are going to do it you better be good at it.

Anyhoo... we didn't come back to our room until 4:00am, and the party was still going strong. The next day we went bowling and skating. Bowling was fun but skating sucked! The music was horrible and there were way to many kids running around. I though they would have the place shut dowm and it would only be us there. That wasn't the case and it just sucked. We all wanted to leave early so we did. As soon as we got back we went right to the bar. The bar was open for 17 hours while we were there and we made sure we took full advantage of it. Even after the bar closed or before it opened up people were still making sure we had drinks because they brough their own liquor. They were out of control.
Later that night we got dressed and were ready to party again. There was a comedy show. I can't remeber what the comedians name was but he has been on Def Comedy Jam before. He was Hilarious! He almost gave me an asthma attack and I don't even have asthma. That night I was so drunk it was crazy. I didn't do anything crazy. I was just really feelin' it. Me and my sister went to our room early because we were done. It was still about 3:00am when we went upstairs. They actually partied until 6:00 am.

On Sunday we just kinda chilled out before we left. We sat by the indoor pool, and had some more drinks. They had karaoke and an early dinner and we left about 4:00 pm.
There was a group of guys that we met and we were kinda chillin' with them the whole weekend, so I made sure I said goodbye to them. I wasn't trying to exchange #'s with anyone I just wanted them to know that I had enjoyed their company while we were there.

When I got home I was sore from bowling and dehydrated from drinking so much. We went to Mc donalds to get something to eat. It felt so good to actually drink a regular drink. It was only the second soda I had the whole weekend. All I did was consume liquor all weekend. I was so tired I went to sleep and I was passed out all night. It was only about 10:00 when I fell asleep. I slept almost 12 hours uninterupted.

I needed that weekend away.

I'm just feeling like BLAH

I don't know what kind of mood I'm in right now. I'm at work and I can't pull myself together. I don't feel like working. I'm not really all that tired. I'm just feeling lazy and unproductive. My mind is all over the place. I'm still a little pissed at my daughter over some BS she pulled. Everytime she gets into that kind of trouble it is always with the same little girl. I'm so sick of them trying to be slick. That little girl needs her ass whipped but that's my opinion because y'all know I will beat the hell out of my child and not think twice about it. Even after they were busted she was just mouthing off. When my daughter gets into trouble she is quiet because she knows she is wrong. But this little girl always still has some smart shit to say because no matter what she is going to make it seem like whatever it was she did was justified. She was really pissing me off but that was for her mom to handle not me. I always tell my daughter that when it comes down to it I am not worried about her friends. She is my responsibility, not her friends. I can't discipline another child. I can just keep her and my daughter apart.

Anyway I don't want to talk about that......Honestly I don't know what the hell I want to talk about. There are so many things roaming thru my mind right now. Like the fact that I have to go in the morning to get an estimate on my car because someone hit it yesterday. It was parked in front of my house, but my street is still extremely slippery from all the thick ice that is still all over the street. I guess I can't really complain because whoever the guy was he called the police and sent them to my house. About 2:00pm I was awakened by the police banging on my door. He told me what happened. At first I was pissed. Then when I saw the damage it is not bad at all. It is still ugly and noticable. So I got the insurance info and I called my insurance company. So we'll see what happens from there.

Friday I went to see Norbitt. I only went because I promised my daughter I would take her. (that was at the beginning of the weekend before she got in trouble) It was such a stupid movie. Actually I thought it was a descent storyline but it just wasn't funny. My daughter and her friend also agreed. I had half a mind to go to the manager and ask for my dam money back. I know that would not have happened. I wish you could get a refund from a horible movie or get a free pass for the next movie you go see.

I can't wait until this weekend. I am going on a ski trip. Me my sister and 2 of her friends. I need this little get a way like you could not even imagine. Every year I always want to go on this ski trip and for some strange reason I never do. So I'm kinda looking forward to it. Also my sister's birthday is the 28th. So we will be celebrating. It includes 17 hours of open bar. That alone is something to look forward to. It should be really fun.

I'm ready to go the hell home. I'm hear physically but mentally I'm home in the bed.

For the first time today I was thinking about him. Y'all know who "him" is. (that sounds real illiterate) I kinda miss him. I can't tell anyone that because people want to misinterpret that to mean that I still love him and I want to be back with him. That could not be further from the truth. I just feel like one of my friends is missing. I mean in 5 years we were more than lovers we were very close friends. He was someone I could go out and have a few drinks with. Someone I could go to the movies with. Go dancing. Talk about folx. Go out to eat. Watch a movie.
I don't miss being in a realtionship. We have been broken up for periods of time before and just remained friends. Even if it was calling each other every other day just to shoot the shit about absolutely nothing. If I was at work and couldn't do something my daughter needed done I could call him. If she was hungry and I didn't feel like cooking he would bring her something to eat, or bring me something to eat. I miss gossiping with him.
I do still love the fact that I come home in the morning after work and no one is in my bed. I love that I can sleep peacefully at night without anyone trying to "get some" I love that I'm not watching the clock to make sure he is in the house at a descent time or watching it to make sure I'm coming in at a descent time. There are no arguments over money. No arguement over house work ex: the dishes not being done, the bedroom a mess etc... I love that it's just me my daughter and my dog.
I love how simple my life is right now. I just hate that he is locked up like a caged animal. But OH WELL, he made his bed he has to lay in it.

THERE IS A REASON THEY ARE EX'S

So tell me why ex-boyfriends were coming out of the woodworks on Valentines day? It was like 7:00n in the morning and "D" was texting me. UUUGGGHH!! I text him back and asked him why does he bother to text me when he knows I don't like him. He told me I can't hold a grudge forever and it take less energy to dislike someone than it does to like them. I told him that I can hold a grudge forever and it doesn't really take that much energy to dislike someone. That shut him down. I can't stand for him to acknowledge me. I know that might sound petty but I just don't want to ever be bothered with him again.

Then all day long my other ex(the one with the stripper girlfriend) kept texting me all day long about absolutely nothing. I was thinking..where the hell is his woman? She must have been out somewhere shaking her ass. Don't get me wrong I actually don't mind talking to him. We have always been extremely cool over the last 5 years we have been broke up, but I can't stand when he wants to flirt and take trips down memory lane. Because I don't look at him in a romantical way anymore. But he obviously does not understand that. He even text me at 3:00 in the morning. WTF!! By then he should have been in between the sheets with his girl. But anyhoo....

The biggest shock was a different ex that text me. We had an intense love affair for 6 months before me and Boss decided we could not live without each other. Honestly that wasn't the only reason we broke up but that had a lot to do with it.
This guy was one of my daughter's "teachers". Not really he was the athletic instructor at the after school program my daughter went to. He was fine as wine and getting better with time. I say that because he was a few years older than me. Ok, he was 10 years older than me. He dam sure didn't look his age and women were always checking him out. He was built just like I like my men, 6'3", 290lbs, all muscle. He used to be a football player. He had a beautiful home, two cars a little status and a lot of issues.
Let me tell you one thing...I'm no dummy by far, so when I found out that his wife just picked up and left him I knew I would soon find out why she left. I figured if everything was as it appeared to be then there is no way she would have given up on their marriage. But I still had to find out for myself because I was extremely attracted to him, he treated me good and he already had a relationship with my daughter. That was a plus for me because the thought of introducing her to someone new was hard for me.
So as time went on I started to see the things I was not going to put up with. It wasn't that it was so bad but you have to remember I was already 3 years into my relationship with Boss and we just had an arguement one day and the next day I was calling this guy and getting something started with him. So I had already been thru the fussing and fighting with my man and I wasn't about to jump out of the frying pan and into the fire. Maybe I was just making up excuses to get back with Boss. I don't know what it was but the day I decided I was really done with him I said some really, really mean and nasty things to him. I never thought he would speak to me again and I was cool with that. But since then he has contacted me a few times. But I was really surprised to hear from him on valentine's day. Then he went into the reminiscing stage. I was like "whatever". So he has been texting me since then. But for some strange reason I got 2 calls on my phone from blocked #'s. The first time I answered and the person hung up. The second time I missed the call but no one left a message.
Now, There are only 2 handfuls of people who have my cell #. And everyone who has it I have their # programmed in my phone. So it's never just a random # calling me. Everytime someone calls me there is a name attached to that #. So of course I am kinda suspicious about why all of a sudden there is someone playing on my phone. I know it all sounds juvenile, but I can just imagine that there is a woman somewhere lurking around in his phone and calling my # trying to find out who I am. If that is the case I wish she would just talk to me because I don't have a problem with letting her know that although she may have come across some text messages that may have implied that we were contemplating getting together, she really has nothing to worry about because I really planned on letting him know that I would rather keep things the way they are between us. I'm not interested at all in us trying to rekindle anything. I feel like that ship has sailed.

But I did run into another ex from all the way back in the day. OMG!! He has a show tomorrow and he gave me a flier and I plan on being there. I said before that I don't like to get back with an ex because that is for people who don't have any options, BUT he would definitely be the exception. I won't get into why he is the exception. Not right now, but if anything happens when I see him tomorrow I will definitely elaborate on him.

My first meme

5 Things You May Not Know About Me.....

I see everyone is doing this meme so I decided to tag myself and do it also

1. When I was about 13 me and my crew had a dance group. I actually forgot what our name was because we couldn't really decide on one and we kept changing it. We used to practice for hours outside at my aunt's house. People from the neighborhood would actually sit outside and watch us practice. We performed at block parties, at parades and anywhere someone would let us dance. When we got to high school we won 1rst place in the talent show. We still have a big trophie. It is at my aunt's house. At first we were a little pissed that we only got one trophie but it didn't matter because we were just happy we won.

2. When I was pregnant with my daughter I cried everyday once I hit 6 months and it became a reality that I was about to be a teen mom. My mom would have to bring food to my room and make me eat. I was just so depressed. On top of that it was one of the hottest summers ever and I had to go to summer school for gym. I assummed they would excuse me because I was pregnant but instead they made me walk the track for 45 minutes everyday.
I know you are thinking "How the hell did I have to go to summer school for gym" Well I just thought I was to cute to participate in gym. Actually I think I was just to dam lazy. So I looked at gym as recess. So needless to say I failed and they were not going to let me pass 11th grade because of gym.
So there I was pregnant, in the dead of summer, and I was miserable as hell.

3. I think I'm somewhat psychic. I know that sounds crazy. I am a little scared of my dreams because they always tell me a story of something that will happen. A lot of times I say things and no sooner than I speak the words from my lips it starts to happen. There have been way to many incidents that I have predicted what would happen and it really did. Don't laugh because it really is true.

4. When my mom passed I contemplated commiting suicide a few days after the funeral. I had it all planned out. I figured my daughter could just go live with her dad. I knew he would take good care of her so I wouldn't have to worry about her. My brothers and sister could go live with their dad or my grandmother would keep them. I didn't really care how it actually worked out, all I knew was that I wanted to be with my mother. When my man came to my house I told him that I wanted to be with my mom and that I loved him but I could not be here without her. He got mad and told me I was talking crazy and acting stupid. He told me he wasn' t going to stay with me since I was acting stupid. I simply said ok. He got as far as the front door then he came back and told me he would watch me all night if he had to. I finally fell asleep and everytime I woke up he was right there watching tv, smoking a cigarette, and keeping an eye on me. When I went to the bathroom he was right there in the hallway making sure I wasn't trying something stupid.
After that night I never thought of doing anything stupid like that. I was just so grief stricken at that time I couldn't even think straight.

5. Last but not least y'all don't know that I'm going to be a self made millionaire in about 7-10 more years. I know that's everyone's dream but i'm going to make it happen. If you refer back to #3 You will know that I am speaking my future into existence.

I could actually do 10 things you don't know about me but I don't want to give to much all at once. Maybe I'll do another 5 things at a later date.

THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW

Have you ever seen that movie? That's what's going on right now. It feels like we are entering another ice age. Tomorrow morning it will be 4-6 degrees outside. The wind chill factor will make it feel like -5 to -15 degrees. WTF!! I can not deal with that type of cold weather. It is going to be like this all week long. I can't wait until the spring comes.

One thing I am happy about is that I'm not still driving the same car I was driving last winter. There is no way it would have been able to make it through this cold weather. Having a newer, much better car gives me piece of mind when I'm faced with 0 degree temperatures.

Well there are other things I could be blogging about but I just wanted to share my concerns about the upcoming weather. If you don't hear from me by the middle of the week please be concerned because I could be somewere froze to death. But if I am froze, me and my child will be froze together because I plan on letting her stay home from school tomorrow because her school will probably be freezing. The heat is usually never working right. The principal actually warned them to dress warmer, because they anticipate it will be really cold in the school. All the money her dad pays for her to go to Catholic School and they can't provide enough heat. That pisses me off. I can't understand why I have to send my child out to school so she can be in there freezing for 7 hours. Then she will get sick because she is one of the sickliest kids I know. Then I have to take care of her. So, because my heat at home is working properly, I will be more than happy to keep her home tomorrow and just go up to the school to get any work she missed.

So until next time...please try to stay as warm as possible if you are also experiencing this arctic blast we are having.