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He finally made it official with this chick he has been seeing. We finally stopped having sex. I didn't think he would have such a hard time letting go of us but he did. Maybe because he has changed. I can see it in him. But it's not enough for me to want us back together. That's what he really wants but I don't feel the same way about him. A lot has changed in the last year and a half. I completely fell in love with someone else and almost made it official with him. He almost made me an honest woman. So my heart is still kinda with him not with Boss. Not any more. It took him a while to really process that. He couldn't allow himself to believe I actually loved someone else. He couldn't believe I considering marriage. I would never entertain the thought of marriage when it came to Boss. He was hurt. He was determined to put us back together. I knew it wouldn't happen. So I had to back away. Meanwhile back at the ranch. She wants him so bad. She has wanted him for a few years now. I like the way she went about it. Just played the sidelines until the right time. Now that she has half a chance she isn't letting it go. He swore she was so dumb. I told him ain't nothing stupid about that girl. But you know men. Swear they got something on lock down. She gave him enough rope to hang himself then she finally ran down everything he thought he was hiding from her. But it wasn't like he was really hiding much. They were just getting to know each other. Nothing more nothing less. He kept flaking out on her because he didn't want to get her to involved because ultimately he wanted his "family " back. Me, him and my daughter. Don't ever tell him she's not his child. Whatever....

One night a few years ago we were in bed. In that twilight sleep. You know when you are on your way but you're still conscience. Well I said to him I have your rib. It took him a minute to respond then he said why do you have it? I said because God gave it to me. He said well I guess that means that you belong to me. I said yes. Then we drifted off to sleep. It was crazy because he knew exactly what I was talking about. I want him to move on and be happy and I think she is really good for him. I am happy with my life. I do not want to be with him but I have his rib.