We're done

The shit finally hit the fan between me and "R". It's gotten to the point that we could end up on the other side of that thin line between love and hate. I won't even get into all that happened because it was really juvenile and I really thought a man his age would have been a little more mature than that, but apparantly I was wrong. So after the BS went down we talked later and he told me he doesn't love me any more and I should move on because he already has. I wasn't mad about him moving on. Especially because we had already discussed that several weeks ago. What I was upset about was him telling me he was going to do something then going back on his word. I was so pissed over that. Especially since he VOLUNTEERED to do it I didn't ask him. Anyway long story short we decided that we will no longer talk but I told him to bring my daughter's bike to me because it has been in his garage every since we left his house. He told me he will bring it but he doesn't know when. Well that further infuriated me because if you don't want to be bothered any longer then stop prolonging the dumb shit. But don't worry because I'm just going to get my daddy's truck and go get it myself. That will piss him off because I showed up at his house unannounced.

My girlfriend was real mad when she heard what happened. She actually seemed like she was hurt because things didn't work out with him and I. But I had to make her see things from his point of view. I had a whole relationship with another man for 4 months while I was with him. If the shoe was on the other foot and I told my girls that he had been cheating on me for that amount of time, or even if it was a one time thing. Their first and only reaction would be to tell me to leave him. Then if I did leave him and he expressed any interest in us getting back together they would be telling me to just move on because if he could live a completely separate life from me and cheat on me then why would I consider getting back with him. Furthermore I told her he has every right to move on and be bitter towards me because his mind probably continuously wonders about who knew I was cheating on him. Who was sitting in his face laughing and joking with him and knowing all along there was someone else in the picture which makes him look like a fool. Or how big of a fool would he be to just forgive my infidelity. After all, twice he was about to put a ring on my finger. Then your mind starts to wonder to all types of other things. I'm sure you guys can imagine what I'm talking about. So now he has some other chick all in his face and giving him the sweet act and making him feel wanted and kinda healing his pain. So now he is deciding that it is time to move on and get out of the vicious cycle between us.

Once I broke it down like that to my girl, she was a little more at ease. I know it sounds crazy that I had to counsel her thru our break up but I did. One thing about me is I ALWAYS have the ability to put myself in the other person's shoes and see things from their point of view. I am very understanding, and I understand why he felt like he had to do what he had to do the other day. HOWEVER......She needs to know she crossed a line the other day and I let it go because like I said I understand her wanting to show me that she is the new woman in his life. I'm ok with that but she better watch it. No one is more vidictive or conniving then me. And that has nothing to do with me doing something to try to get him back. It's all about her knowing she need not cross that line with me. But if anything else happens I will let y'all know.