I'm just feeling like BLAH

I don't know what kind of mood I'm in right now. I'm at work and I can't pull myself together. I don't feel like working. I'm not really all that tired. I'm just feeling lazy and unproductive. My mind is all over the place. I'm still a little pissed at my daughter over some BS she pulled. Everytime she gets into that kind of trouble it is always with the same little girl. I'm so sick of them trying to be slick. That little girl needs her ass whipped but that's my opinion because y'all know I will beat the hell out of my child and not think twice about it. Even after they were busted she was just mouthing off. When my daughter gets into trouble she is quiet because she knows she is wrong. But this little girl always still has some smart shit to say because no matter what she is going to make it seem like whatever it was she did was justified. She was really pissing me off but that was for her mom to handle not me. I always tell my daughter that when it comes down to it I am not worried about her friends. She is my responsibility, not her friends. I can't discipline another child. I can just keep her and my daughter apart.

Anyway I don't want to talk about that......Honestly I don't know what the hell I want to talk about. There are so many things roaming thru my mind right now. Like the fact that I have to go in the morning to get an estimate on my car because someone hit it yesterday. It was parked in front of my house, but my street is still extremely slippery from all the thick ice that is still all over the street. I guess I can't really complain because whoever the guy was he called the police and sent them to my house. About 2:00pm I was awakened by the police banging on my door. He told me what happened. At first I was pissed. Then when I saw the damage it is not bad at all. It is still ugly and noticable. So I got the insurance info and I called my insurance company. So we'll see what happens from there.

Friday I went to see Norbitt. I only went because I promised my daughter I would take her. (that was at the beginning of the weekend before she got in trouble) It was such a stupid movie. Actually I thought it was a descent storyline but it just wasn't funny. My daughter and her friend also agreed. I had half a mind to go to the manager and ask for my dam money back. I know that would not have happened. I wish you could get a refund from a horible movie or get a free pass for the next movie you go see.

I can't wait until this weekend. I am going on a ski trip. Me my sister and 2 of her friends. I need this little get a way like you could not even imagine. Every year I always want to go on this ski trip and for some strange reason I never do. So I'm kinda looking forward to it. Also my sister's birthday is the 28th. So we will be celebrating. It includes 17 hours of open bar. That alone is something to look forward to. It should be really fun.

I'm ready to go the hell home. I'm hear physically but mentally I'm home in the bed.

For the first time today I was thinking about him. Y'all know who "him" is. (that sounds real illiterate) I kinda miss him. I can't tell anyone that because people want to misinterpret that to mean that I still love him and I want to be back with him. That could not be further from the truth. I just feel like one of my friends is missing. I mean in 5 years we were more than lovers we were very close friends. He was someone I could go out and have a few drinks with. Someone I could go to the movies with. Go dancing. Talk about folx. Go out to eat. Watch a movie.
I don't miss being in a realtionship. We have been broken up for periods of time before and just remained friends. Even if it was calling each other every other day just to shoot the shit about absolutely nothing. If I was at work and couldn't do something my daughter needed done I could call him. If she was hungry and I didn't feel like cooking he would bring her something to eat, or bring me something to eat. I miss gossiping with him.
I do still love the fact that I come home in the morning after work and no one is in my bed. I love that I can sleep peacefully at night without anyone trying to "get some" I love that I'm not watching the clock to make sure he is in the house at a descent time or watching it to make sure I'm coming in at a descent time. There are no arguments over money. No arguement over house work ex: the dishes not being done, the bedroom a mess etc... I love that it's just me my daughter and my dog.
I love how simple my life is right now. I just hate that he is locked up like a caged animal. But OH WELL, he made his bed he has to lay in it.