Couldn't keep it to myself any longer

If I would have known the sex was going to be this good I would have f*#ed him ions ago. Why can't things just be as simple as, he likes me, I like him so we just do the dam thing. Nope. It has to be as complicated as I love him, he loves me but our affair is taboo. And there is no way we should be together. F*#ck!!! Why am I lieing to him and telling him that me and my man are not together? I have never lied to him before about anything. But there was no way I could tell him that I got back with him after he put me out. Ok, maybe it wasn't that drastic. It wasn't like he packed my shit and put me out in the cold. He just simply told me he wanted his space back and this wasn't working for him anymore. Whatever. That's another story and that's not the one I'm telling right now.

I'm telling a tale of passion, lust, love good laughs, and great sex. That's everything I have with him. Because he thinks I'm no longer with my man, he keeps telling me he thinks I'm on the rebound. So I asked him, "If you think I'm on the rebound with you then what's your excuse for being with me?" His response. "Because I love you." "Well, I love you too and that's why I'm dealing with you." Right now I'm getting what I need from him. It's what I'm lacking in my relationship. Don't get me wrong I love my man. But I am now 100% sure that he will never be my husband. But the reason I am still with him is because he is really a good man and good men are extremely hard to come by in this day and age. So I will stay with him and be the best girlfriend I can possible be towards him. But I keep him at a distance because he has some issues that he really truely needs to work out. But as I was saying "C" is giving me what I need. I guess we are really giving it to each other. I can be the carefree, comical, sweet, energetic, passionate, sexually inhibited person that I am. We have a comfort zone that is so amazing. Everything with us is just so free flowing. The sex is some of the best I've ever had in my life. We actually make love to each other. I'm talking about the tender touching. The staring into each other's eyes. The passionate kisses. The whispers of I love you's. The running the fingers thru the hair. The neck sucking, finger sucking, hair pulling, soft moaning, sweat dripping, tears rolling. And finally the climaxing TOGETHER!!.......
Then laying there side by side with cum soaked sheets. Trying to catch our breath. Dead silence between us, except for the soft sound of slow jams in the background. He rolls over on his side, while I lay on my back. He strokes the side of my face, plays in my hair, asks me am I alright. "Yes" He pulls me close to him, I lay on his chest, he kisses my forehead and says good night baby. I say good night. A few minutes later I say tell me you love me. He lifts my chin up so I am facing him. He looks me in my eyes and says I love you. I say I love you too and we are off to sleep.