HONESTY

You wanna know the real reason I started blogging? Because I had 2 journals in my life. The first one was when I was young, a teeneager. My mom and grandmom found it and they were quite upset because in it I expressed how much I hated both of them. What did you expect from a teenage girl? I really thought that was so stupid for them to be upset with me for what I said in MY journal. Those were MY private thoughts and they had no right to invade MY privacy.

The second journal I had recently. About 2 years ago. My man read it and he was pissed off about another man I mentioned and something that we did. (what we did was so good it definitely deserved an entry :-). Anyway me and my man weren't together at the time. I was in a relationship with someone else for 5 months. I couldn't believe he had the audacity to be upset with me over something I did with my "boyfriend" at the time.

After that I decided to never have a jounal again because people are to dam nosey. I know you are probably thinking, would I be nosy enough to read someone else's journal. The answer is NO! My daughter is 12 and she has a diary and I am aware of it and I have come across it several times and I have never read it.

So anyway the reason I started blogging was because I look at it as my on-line journal. I guess that's really what it is. I can say whatever the hell I want to say. I can be honest about what is going on or not going on in my life. I don't even care that perfect stangers are reading it and even commenting on what I'm writing, because no one knows me. All they know about me is what I tell them. So I'm going to really tell a little about myself. Here is some honesty for your ass...

I am what most people would call a BITCH. Let me explain...I am very opinionated about things. I am particular about certain things. I don't let anything go. I hold a grudge like a pit-bull holding a bone. I have a smart ass mouth. But I can be very sophisticated when I'm cussing someone out, and just so you know...I'm usually cussing someone out on a daily basis. It doesn't always have to be vulgar. That's where the sophistication comes in at. People really hate it when you cuss them out in a very calm manner and not use any curse words.

I'm MONEY HUNGRY. I believe that most women are. I just don't mind openly admitting it right off the bat. I work hard and I do the things I want to do. So I don't expect to be with a broke ass man. Once again I'm sure most women are like that. I don't believe I should have to go to work and buss my ass to get the things that I want and I have a trifling ass man at home, and he is not doing something to contribute to the cause. HELL NO! One thing I know is that I will probably miss a chance at true love because of my obsession for money, but I don't care. If I'm going to do everything on my own then I will be on my own. I don't want a man there just to say I have a man. I know plenty of women like that. I know some of then pity me because they think that I'll never be truely happy if all I care about is money. I pity them because if you only have love without finance the dam mortgage can not get paid.

I am very GIVING, but I am also very SELFISH. Let me explain...I will do whatever for those I love but I won't over-extend myself. I know some people who will go above and beyond the call of duty to make someone else happy at the expense of their own happiness. HELL NO! The only person I would go above and beyond the call of duty for is my child.

Speaking of my child..I am a WONDERFUL mother. That is one of the things I do not hesitate to brag about. We have a great relationship I am aware of her strengths and shortcomings. I nuture her stengths and work on her shortcomings. No matter what I do out in the streets I try to always maintain a stable household. I am very involved with what's going on in school. I know and have developed a relationship with all of her friends. I give her space but not to much because after all she is only 12 and Lawd know I remember how much of a hot ass I was at 12. That's why I try to stay aware of what's going on with her at all times. I know that sounds basic. These things are just what comes naturally when you are a parent, but unfortunately that is not true. As sad as it is, I know plenty of women who are to busy running behind a man and are ignoring their children.

Last but not least I am EVIL as hell. You probably already figured that out from when I said I was a bitch. I am spiteful and I believe in getting revenge on someone. It's not something that I am proud of but that's me. I know two wrongs don't make it right but it makes it even. That's my motto.

So that's a little about me and I might sound like a bad person but I can't be that bad because for some strange reason people are drawn to me and they love me to death.