What Am I Going To Do With This Little Girl?

I looked at my daughter yesterday and realized I want to lock her up until she turns 21. Then I will let her out. No I'm not even joking. If I could actually do it I would. She is 12 and she is going to be something to fuckin' get ready for. Me and my sister always make jokes about her and how she is going to be when she grows up. We both know she is going to give me HELL!

The other day me her and my man went to the movies. She was looking so dam cute it was sickening. *side note*...I'm not one of those parents who swears they have the cutest kid in the world and the kid really isn't cute at all....Anyway she had on a cute little skirt (not too little, I don't play that shit), with a cute top that falls off the shoulders, and a pair of flip-flops. Her hair was pulled back into a clip, with a ponytail and the back part was out. She has shoulder length hair so it looked really cute. She obviously thought she looked cute because she had that swagger in her walk. (yall know what I'm talkin' bout). I wanted to just put her on punishment

Yesterday she was on her way to her grandmom's house and she came in my room to let me know she was leaving. I took one look at her and wanted to make her stay in the house. All she had on was a white T-shirt, blue jean shorts and flip-flops, with a ponytail, and that big bright beautiful smile, and she was georgeous
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OK, this is the real problem....not only is she cute with a not-so-twelve-year-old body, but she is street smart. She knows how to get the things that she wants. Se is definitely into boys because we have had a couple of incidents. Not anything major, but enough to let me know she is starting to notice them. We actually have this thing we do called "girl talk." That means she can tell me the things that are going on and she can't get into any trouble. I like doing that because it keeps our lines of communication open. It keeps me informed and lets her know that she doesn't have to be afraid to talk to me. So one day we were talking about boys that she likes. She was telling me about a little boy named Arlin. So I remember a week ago she mention another boy's name. When I asked her what happened to the first boy she had the nerve to say, "Mom, that was last week, you need to keep up with me that's over with." I could not beieve she said that. Not only that, but I also asked her if the other boy was cute. You will never guess what she said....She said "He's not really cute but he is real sweet and has personality so that goes a long way." WTF...Please keep in mind this is a 12 year old. That is some shit a grown ass woman would say.

I'm worried because I was only a year older than her when I started having sex. My mom had no idea. I was hot as a fuckin firecracker. I realized at a young age the power a woman has. I know grown woman my age who still don't know, but I was so young when I started and I only dealt with older guys. I was way to experienced before my time. That doesn't mean I was fuckin a whole lot of people. It was quality over quantity. Nonetheless I was still to young to be doing the things I was doing.

I don't want my baby girl to follow in my footsteps. As a parents we always want our kids to be better than us. To not make the mistakes that we made.

I will tell you this...I WILL NOT be oblivious to what is going on. I am way to nosey for something to be going on right under my nose and I don't know. When I came home and told my mom I was pregnant she was absolutely, positively blown away. She had no idea I was having sex. Then again maybe she knew but she wanted to be in denial about it. But I know she had no clue that I had already been sexing for 4 years before I got pregnant. She always thought my baby's daddy was my first one (yeah right).